I want one! lol I know that that's very random, but I've wanted a penpal for most of my life.  Someone to share stories with- send pictures, cards, and such with.  To get to know someone different, someone who I haven't seen every day for the past who-knows-how-many years.  Someone who inspires me to have a full life, so I can have stuff that's worthy of telling them. 

So yeah, where am I going with this? Well, if you'd be interested in being my penpal; check out my profile here, and possibly on myspace, and send me an email so we can get to know eachother. Then, maybe we could swap snail mail addresses and go from there?

Also, if I sound like a complete nut job, feel free to tell me.

Well, my internet was down for a while, but now it's all back to normal.

My life is weird lately, not that that's anything new.  I'm trying to get out of the house more, and that whole process is turning out... weirdly. All I know is that lately I've had the incredible urge just to get out and live.  If you asked me two months ago if I liked my job, I'd have firmly anwered No.  Now, I'm not so sure.  The people who stress me out either aren't there or aren't as stressing. As I'm trying to become closer with the people I work with, I'm realizing something - I'm totally socially defective.  Interacting with the people around me completely eludes me; I have no idea how to even have a life anymore.  So yeah, weirdness.  But still, it's something.  I wish I had a way to just go away for a week and get a fresh perspective, maybe that would jumpstart my social ablities.  

Until then, my internet is back, I'm going out with friends more, and I'm trying to enjoy my life while I wait for things to get better.  Oh how I can't wait 'til Spring to start showing itself.

Okay, so I've been coming into contact with a TON of movies and such that I used to be obsessed with when I was around the ages of say 6 to 8 years old. 

Examples: I spotted (and impulsively purchased) Fern Gully; I more recently spotted The Last Unicorn while gift shopping; I found all of the original English episodes of Sailor Moon online; Mighty Morphing Powers Rangers the Movie was on TV tonight; my friend gave me a Peter Pan music box that shows a "map" of Neverland and reveals Tinkerbell twirling to "You Can Fly! You Can Fly! You Can Fly!"....

It's just baffling me that so many blasts from the past are finding me all at once this month.  Are they signs or just coincidence? I feel myself beginning to rack my brain to make sense of these signs.  And then I scold myself for indulging in seeming nonsense.  After all, what could such signs mean?  Aside from family stuff going on right now, when I add these childhood occurrences I feel like I'm loosing it lol.  Just Figured I'd share a little insanity today, I guess.  I've had a stressful day and having at a good ramble always makes me feel better :-D 

 Well, Good-night/ Stay Blessed-

Ashley

Hope everybody's holidays are great!!!

Best Wishes<333,

Ashley

But now...not so much...

I was all ready to say how awesomely proud of myself I am about the changes I made to my page on Myspace, and how I saw my sister and youngest niece (getting big in the last 7 months or so, and completely adorable) today and all sorts of good things.

Then my best friend instant messages me and tells me that her dad lost the money he had to last them until FRIDAY.  So, for her, no Christmas to speak of as well as extrememely limited living in general 'til then.  I'm devastated. I love the holiday season and look forward to my family's Christmas.  This year we barely have enough to stay fed and clothed ourselves, but we're managing somehow for Christmas, if only barely.  But it kills me to know that my ABSOLUTE BEST friend has -nothing- and I don't have any way to help her out. If my family and I even had 20 dollars to spare, it'd be her's.  But we're all holding our breath 'til the next round of paychecks ourselves.  I still feel like absolute crap about the whole situation though.  This has just been a bad weekend, or week for that matter.

Well, here's hoping for a change in my future, and hers, and everyone else who needs one as badly as we do...

--Ashley